Sunday, February 14, 2016

If thou must love me...


If thou must love me, let it be for nought
 Except for love’s sake only. Do not say, 
 “I love her for her smile—her look—her way 
 Of speaking gently,—for a trick of thought 
 That falls in well with mine, and certes brought 
 A sense of pleasant ease on such a day”— 
 For these things in themselves, Belov├Ęd, may 
 Be changed, or change for thee—and love, so wrought, 
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for 
 Thine own dear pity’s wiping my cheeks dry: 
 A creature might forget to weep, who bore 
 Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby! 
 But love me for love’s sake, that evermore 
 Thou mayst love on, through love’s eternity.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning, 1806 - 1861


But love me for love's sake, that evermore 

Thou mayst love on, through love's eternity.







Sunday, February 7, 2016

Life Lately



I haven't posted on my blog for awhile due to the mere fact that I haven't had time.  In the month of January I had one day off.  I worked every single day, often times 10 hours a day.  To say that I'm exhausted is an understatement.  But there is no rest to be had!  February is extremely busy as this is our show month (we are doing Grease!), and March will be hectic since I have three school trips planned.  End of April we have our big fundraising event - the Fine Arts Gala, and I'm taking my choir to New York!  I guess I can rest when I'm dead (or at least, when summer break finally comes)!

Lately I've been doing a lot of deep-thinking about my life and my goals and my career.  I think being so busy and exhausted all the time is really taking a toll on me, mentally and emotionally.  I start daydreaming and fantasizing about quitting my job, being a full-time blogger or something else that works from home, having time to eat healthy and exercise...  I remembered when I was younger I wanted to be a writer... I gave up that idea because being a writer means spending a lot of time alone, and I think I would get bored, or I'm worried I wouldn't have enough original ideas to write about.  Full-time blogging is a big thing right now.  People are making great money by working from home.  But honestly I don't think I'm creative enough to come up with fresh content that will generate income via my blog.  And I don't think I would be disciplined enough to work from home anyway.  I would just faff around watching youtube videos and chilling in my robe.  But doesn't that just sound heavenly?!  Sitting around in a robe all day!

I also fantasize about changing careers completely and opening up a cute little stationery store or tea shop.  I've written about that before.  I think I definitely want to get a blog redesign and focus more on writing and less on "doing things" for my blog (DIYs, etc).

Anyway, long story short, I'm having a bit of a life-crisis.  Honestly it is all stemming from the fact that I'm overworked and exhausted right now.  My goal has always been to teach at a college or University, and I just need to keep that goal in mind while I'm doing the brunt-work right now.  I just have to get through these next couple of years (and first, these next couple of months)!!!

So how have you been?  How's the weather where you live?  It has been a very bi-polar winter here... sometimes it's freezing and we have to scrape frost off our cars and other times it's in the 70s... can't make up its mind!  We are in the midst of rearranging our house.  Peter wants to get a tv, so we have to rearrange our entire living room setup because the tv hookups are on the other side of the room, where our couch is... We also want to get a different table for our dining room, and maybe get a cute little chair and end-table combo for the awkward space in-between our dining room and living room (open floor plan).  We also want to redo our office and get some real desks.  I've been scouring Pinterest for organization ideas.


So that's basically all the updates I have for now.  Talk to you soon!

XO,

Julie
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